I've never fit in, never had good friends, always was shy, always beat up in school, come from a family of extreme abuse and neglect and now have developed social anxiety disorder. I am 30 years old, live in my mom's house and have no hope or motivation, I can't leave the house because of my anxiety and the therapist I had couldn't help me. I make $0 a week/month/year and am a burden on my mom. She doesn't know how to help, my cousins/aunts/uncles all ignore me and my problems, they call me lazy but if I had a choice to live any other way then I would, I feel I have no choice, no where to turn.
what am I supposed to do?