Thanks Prof. C,
I am overall really happy and really grateful, but I am struggling with some identity issues. It's really tough to be in a PhD program, and know that you are leaving. I still have a whole semester left and I feel like an alien, because some people know that I got a job and some people don't know yet about me leaving for a job. I feel like I am lying to half of my department. On the surface my advisor says that he fully supports me and that the firm is happy to have me as an employee, but I can't help but think that he is disappointed.
I feel no real danger in telling folks that I am leaving, but academia is such a strong culture, especially here in my department, that I honestly feel incredibly inferior.
Blah! At least I have a new path... I am simultaneously applying to medical school next semester as well, because it was my original undergraduate dream and I just got scared. The job will be a nice intermediate step, or if medical school doesn't work out, at leas a strong backup.
Thanks for knocking some sense into me about this
